i lost my copy of your autobiography--"Will"--about 10 years ago, so you're gonna have to bear with my paraphrasing.  i was very much struck by several of your revelations.

for example, you described being present at a meeting with some under-assistant something or other to turkey during a time when nixon was determined to pressure the turkish government into halting the production of opium as part of his 'war on drugs'.  whoever the guy was and whatever his position mighta been isn't really that important.   he was, you recounted, trying to explain the turk regime was in a precarious position and that favorable resolution was going to require some time. 

you responded by telling the guy he was a failure.  then, pulling your sidearm and sliding it across the table, you advised him to do the honorable thing.

after you were revealed to be a key player in the watergate scandal, you claimed to have offered to make yourself available on any street corner in dc so that you could take a bullet in order to save your president's honor.

several times in 1983, i almost had an opportunity to ask you the question i'm about to pose.  luckily i got squeezed out cuz i see now it woulda been premature.   (the first time was at the wilshire theatre during the question & answer portion of the 'leary/liddy debate'...thanks to a guy with a seeing-eye dog who claimed leary was responsible for the acidheads who hit this guy full in the face with a shotgun blast; the next time was at a cocktail party some months later when you left just as i was arriving.)

anyway...here's my question:

considering you pretty much--by your own admission--failed at everything you tried to do prior to being hired by the nixon whitehouse (and we all know how that worked out), why haven't you done anything to reclaim your own honor...as a man...a failed fbi agent...a failed district attorney...a failed candidate...a failed secret agent & conspirator? 

it would be more than a lil bit presumptious of me to insist you take a really drastic step like doin yourself.  specially now when there's a great alternative.

mark felt is still walking around and now he's bragging about how he helped bring you and your buddies down.  sure he's an old man...and, yeah, he hadda stroke a couple years ago and he aint in that good shape.  but your hand prolly aint that steady anymore either.   

all ya gotta do is synch your shakes to his and you should be able to avenge your associates...and reclaim your honor.

my advice:  do it at very close range. 

you can't afford to fuck this one up, gordo.